Sometimes

A poem about a complicated relationship.

Sometimes I’m your haven,

Sometimes I cause you pain,

Sometimes we share and celebrate,

Sometimes I couldn’t care,

And I’m sick of it.

Sometimes I can’t breathe without you,

Sometimes I can’t sleep without you,

Sometimes I miss you so much.

Sometimes I think I made a mistake,

I ask myself which path did I take,

Sometimes I regret my choices,

I can’t silence my inner voices.

Sometimes I want to scream but I don’t have it in me,

Sometimes you want to hit me but you don’t have it in you,

Sometimes anger is my only shield,

I don’t want to break, I don’t want to yield.

If I surrender it means I feel,

I cry,

And my heart feels like a wound that won’t heal,

I die.

Sometimes I just want it to stop,

Sometimes I want to go on,

Sometimes I want to leave,

But will it give me inner peace?

Sometimes I think am not ready.

But, I ask myself

When is the best time to take a leap of faith,

When is the best time to let go of the pain,

When is the best time to accept you’ve failed,

When is the best time to give it a break,

And

When is the best time to let it all fall away?

The best time is when you have courage to do it,

Don’t think so much through it,

If it doesn’t work out screw it,

At least you had the courage to push through it.